It is Thursday. Someone tried to tell me otherwise but I straightened them out. There are soft pretzels here should anyone want one. It is one of my friend's last day. His job was "eliminated". Since his boss (not her decision to let him go) did lunch yesterday I figured she was done so I brought pretzels in today. She brought bagels and such this morning. Guess we are good for breakfast, lunch and snack now.
The auditors made some demands yesterday that threw me off everything else I was supposed to do so I am trying to play catch up today.
Work on.
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Last night I had a screenwriter's meeting, so I didn't get to do any catch up. Now I'm conflicted on what to do tonight. I need to go grocery shopping, I could use some laundry done, I also want to see the Hunger Games before it's out of theaters, and I want to see the Avengers, and I also want to see my friends. I'll probably end up doing the chores and leaving the fun stuff for tomorrow.
I got my walk behind mower back out of the shop yesterday, so I got to mow the jungle at home last night too. It was nice to have it self propelling again.
My nephew graduates on Saturday. We haven't gotten an announcement or an invite to the reception. I'm curious if we were forgotten, or are just unimportant. It is likely that my sister-in-law wanted to save 45 cents on us and had one in her purse to give to me at church or something and she just forgot to do it. That would be typical behavior for her/them. I'm tempted to not go to the reception, but I kinda want to be part of my nephew's special day. If it was something less important, I just wouldn't go.
I'm starting to stress a little about our anniversary in July. I really don't know what to do. This year will be 25 for us. It should be a special time. Typically, I should try to do something above and beyond the normal anniversary routine. On the other hand, not long ago my wife said she doesn't know if she she loves me (which I took to mean she doesn't but just didn't want to say it), she does know she loves her "friend", and she is 50/50 on caring if we stay together or not. So, should I try to still make it special? Should I keep it low key? Should I do nothing at all? I just don't know. I've got two months to figure it out.
I'm starting to stress a little about our anniversary in July. I really don't know what to do. This year will be 25 for us. It should be a special time. Typically, I should try to do something above and beyond the normal anniversary routine. On the other hand, not long ago my wife said she doesn't know if she she loves me (which I took to mean she doesn't but just didn't want to say it), she does know she loves her "friend", and she is 50/50 on caring if we stay together or not. So, should I try to still make it special? Should I keep it low key? Should I do nothing at all? I just don't know. I've got two months to figure it out.
In my world, I think it's up to what you WANT to do. Do you still love her? Do you want to do something big to show her? Or are you not really interested and would only do something big if that's what she wanted?
In my world, I think it's up to what you WANT to do. Do you still love her? Do you want to do something big to show her? Or are you not really interested and would only do something big if that's what she wanted?
I have lots lof mixed up feelings and emotions. I know I don't want to make things worse by not doing enough (seeming like I don't care) or doing too much (appearing desparate and "weak").
I don't know what I want to do. I would like to do something extra nice for her, but yet self-protection wants to do almost nothing to avoid the rejection and yet another kick to the head.
Yes, I do still love her, but she is making that to be more difficult to feel.
Extremely tough spot. Sorry that you even have to ponder it. My first thought is if she doesn't care why should you? But then I think that is not accurate because after all, it is 25 years plus the years before you were married. And I've never been in that spot so I won't pretend to understand. It does seem like it would be a waste to celebrate something that she doesn't want to recognize or no longer believes in.
Unfortunately we all know that whatever you may choose to do will not be appreciated.
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Yeah, right. They won't let us out of here. So glad they moved the data center offsite. :/ I just saw the VP of IT and she said they cut a line. Our 10 other sites are fine. In the meantime, if you didn't already have an Excel file open there is no opening it now. And we lost the accounting system as well as the portal completely. I really wanted to finish the use tax file today but I don't think that will happen now. I need to look up some information but can't. If you have a laptop, you can connect via wifi to one of the other servers. This is definitely how you bring a corporate office to a halt. Some of us have been able to keep working.
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In the meantime, if you didn't already have an Excel file open there is no opening it now. And we lost the accounting system as well as the portal completely. I really wanted to finish the use tax file today but I don't think that will happen now. I need to look up some information but can't. If you have a laptop, you can connect via wifi to one of the other servers. This is definitely how you bring a corporate office to a halt. Some of us have been able to keep working.
