Over the past few days I've read the posts and the many emails I've received. On the forum it was clear that there was some anger over the events of Monday. Most of the emails, while supportive and kind, also had atleast one paragraph of anger in them.
The basic question put to me was "How can you turn your back and walk away from people who care for you". All I can say is that your anger is justified.
JD & I never intended to hurt any of you. My intention was that JD & I would learn to co-exist peacefully despite our differences and nothing would change for any of you.
Unfortunately in the heat of a conflict sometimes things can seem pretty ugly. I lost sight of the fact that one or two people do not represent the whole of this forum. When I decided to walk away I thought I was doing what was best. I never expected JD to leave too. As soon as I hit submit and deleted my account I saw his post saying he was gone too.
JD & I have talked more seriously in the last two days than we've talked in our entire 12 year friendship.
We both understand and value each and everyone of you. I'm sorry I didn't show that to you on Monday. I was wrong to let emotions put my freindships with all of you at risk.
I will never, EVER forget how supportive you all were when my Dad died. I still get a little emotional when I think of how much concern you all showed in what was without a doubt the darkest time in my life.
I'm back on the forum, although I won't be around a lot because a few relationships need some time to heal. The station and the forum will not be going anywhere.
JD wants me to take back administrator duties and I will, but if someone else would be interested in being administrator please contact JD or I. Maybe considering everything it's best a third person control the forum.
I just hope you all know that I never meant to turn my back on you. If you really think I did then I guess I'll have to work harder to convince you how much you all mean to me.
From this point forward I'm going to heed Web's advice to all of us and follow the policy that if something can't be said publicly it won't be said privately. I want nothing to do with the gossip that at times has run rampant (and that yes, I was a willing participant in).
One FINAL thought. Many of you know that I've become good friends with Jennifer (FireFly) and the gossip is that she somehow convinced me to take the actions that led to Mondays blowout.
I can not stress enough that this is just not true! This has been building for some time. My conversations with her have been 98% non-forum related, and when the conversation has turned to the forum the only input she has ever given me has been to do what I felt was right, she would support me either way.
It saddens me that the one person on this forum who may never come back is her. She has done nothing wrong, she's just a victim of bad timing.
After MANY hours of getting to know her I can tell you she is a considerate, caring invididual that would never go out of her way to hurt anyone. If you look at her three months of posts you will not find that she has never had a bad word to say to anyone.
Because she's not comfortable coming back many of you will miss out on getting to know a wonderful person that surely would have made your life just a little better. If you're not one of the people who blame her for any of this, you might want to contact her via MySpace. Take my word for it, you'll be lucky to add her as a friend.
