I spent most of the past 2 weeks alone, the BF works 4PM till Midnight, I work 8AM to 4PM, so I never see him. I bought all the christmas gifts for his family, he gave me the money, I wrapped them, and I even drove to his parent's on Christmas Eve to bring the gifts to them and his brothers, and neices and nephews for opening. He was at work.
The next day on Christmas he woke up after me, I let him sleep in, since he worked the night before and had a call of a man who had hung himself w/ neckties, so I knew he had to be depressed and or stressed over his Christmas Eve call. (He's a cop) Suicide on Christmas Eve, sad, very sad; Well after he woke up he stormed past me, told me his X wife changed his picking up his 4 year old from noon that day to 5 O'Clock. He took a pile of gifts to his extended family alone, and never said "good morning" to me, or "merry Christmas" to me the entire day. I opened gifts w/ Kaisha alone just her and I, and went to my mom's house. I never saw my BF the rest of the day, he didn't come to where I was locally w/ my family, he just sat here at the house, waiting for 5 o'clock, for when he could leave to pick up his daughter. He totally brushed being w/ me off the entire day.
When I was at my mother's house opening gifts, where my oldest brother lives now also, it was very uncomfortable, he is addictd to crystal meth, and unemployed. This drug has ruined his life, and I am seriously scared, worried and upset over how he looks and acts lately. Even though he seemed upbeat, and mostly normal on Christmas, I caught myself staring at his face, teeth, hands, fingers, skin, arms, etc.... all to find more proof of his addiction.
Myself and 8 other family members and friends of his are planning an intervention in less than 2 weeks to try to get him to detox and rehab... I am worried how he is going to react to this, and how it will effect our relationship, and am stressed w/ the "what if's" of this whole thing.
Last night after my BF took his daughter home after having her for about 25 hours we went to a pizzaria, and that took a turn for the worse. When we came home we ended up fighting over him not being able to watch the plasma TV and him ranting and raving about Kaisha playing Guitar Hero on it, and he started acting immature, saying things that were inappropriate and stormed out. As he backed out of the driveway he hit my car, accidently, he say, and tore my bumper off of it. And then just drove off. He says he didn't know he hit it. Anyway, I told him not to return, told him that we just can't keep living like this, fight after fight after fight, and he went to his parent's house for the night. I had to call in sick today for work because I couldn't drive my car there, due to the accident, and he came this morning and temporarily fixed it. Took more of his items, and told me we just can't be together. There's just too much chaos... he's right, I agree.
On the bright side, Eddie (Kaisha's Boyfriend) comes home from the Navy for 2 weeks tomorrow morning, he is from here, so he gets to be w/ his family, sister, and Kaisha for awhile. And she's picking him up at the airport tomorrow morning. I am looking very much forward to his visit, and I am excited he is coming here, and finally it's not Kaisha going out to San Diego for once.
My birthday is Sunday and Kaisha and Eddie have plans to take me out, etc, and the NE Patriots play on Saturday, and they also want me to hang out w/ them that night too and watch the game. So at least I have something to look forward to.
I miss you all, and I am glad that you are hear to let me talk to. Don't forget I am on myspace. www.myspace.com/darleneapd
he's right, I agree. 
