I'm up and have been since 5:30. I am at work. I had the worst morning imaginable at home too. Tomorrow I am going to have to get an attorney and have my husband forced out of our home. I am so sick to my stomach and I have to work until 6 tonight and I have 9 appointments. Thanks for the six pack JR :) Pray that E will be okay- I had to come to work today:(
I'm up and have been since 5:30. I am at work. I had the worst morning imaginable at home too. Tomorrow I am going to have to get an attorney and have my husband forced out of our home. I am so sick to my stomach and I have to work until 6 tonight and I have 9 appointments. Thanks for the six pack JR :) Pray that E will be okay- I had to come to work today:(
I will chant for you and Little E this morning, Ruby. For your safety, for your perseverence, and for you to find the right path to happiness in your future. Hang in there...you'll make it through.
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-- Heather: "I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy every minute of it!"
I'm a lazy bum today. We woke up about 8:00 but just laid in bed for another hour until the boy came in and told us it was time to get up and get him some breakfast. I came out to my chair and started doing some stuff on the computer but quickly realized I was not ready for that yet. So, I leaned back and next thing I know, its 10:15. I'll try this being awake thing again now and see how it goes.
Ruby, sorry to hear about your continuing problems. I hope a solution to it all is in your near future. No one should spend their life on the rollercoaster you've been on since I've known you.
Nice day here. I REALLY wanna grill out but I gots no food. Going to the grocery store today does not feel like a good option, I expect the lines will be long and my patience is always short in those circumstances.
Is it possible to grill out pancakes? All I got is pancake batter in the house.
Well I have held out hope and prayed for this for years. God tells me to stay and I even had answered prayer this weekend- he went to church with me yesterday- the first time in ten years, but his sins followed him in and out. If I ever want my sanity God will have to use someone else to bring my husband back to him:) The devil beat me. I will lose everything I have worked so hard for too. And my heart is split in twenty places- my daughter is gonna lose her dad and I am just sick.
I know as a person who's very religious you feel you have to do everything you can to save your family, and I commend you for that. Too many people are quick to throw everything away when it's not going well.
But I think you can hold your head high knowing you've tried your best with all of this. If your husband is ever going to change it's probably going to have to be through a massive bottoming out. As a mother you have every right to protect yourself and your daughter from being hurt as he continues his self-destructive behavior.
Personally I'm just hoping two years from now we'll be chatting with a Ruby who isn't always dealing with so much stress at home. Stress is SUPPOSED to come from work.
If your husband is ever going to change it's probably going to have to be through a massive bottoming out. As a mother you have every right to protect yourself and your daughter from being hurt as he continues his self-destructive behavior.
Unfortunately this is probably true Ruby.....it will take a bottoming out before any change in his behavior can occur, and for some people, that's an awful long ways down. You need to do what you have to do to protect yourself and little E.....that's the main thing you should focus on in my opinion. I know you're hurting and I wish there was a way to make your pain go away. I hope knowing that we're all here for you will help a little with that. My thoughts are with you during this very trying time.