Hello all. Sorry I've been missing in action but this has been a horribly bad week.
I spent all of Tuesday and Wednesday confined to bed, unable to walk even a few feet without breathing heavy and feeling faint. Of course, my fear quickly became that it was a heart attack or something similiar. But I also had no appetite or thirst, along with some other symptoms I won't mention.
Since I just got back from seeing Jenn and she has a bad case of the flu (which is now an even worse case of flu/strep throat) I thought it might be that, but I also suspected it was possibly pyschological.
When my father was diagnosed with cancer I spent a month certain I was having a heart attack. I had the bouts of sweating, rapid heart rate, faintness, etc. So this really made me wonder if I was going through the same type of thing.
At the moment I'm under a lot of stress from about a dozen different areas. I've got some major life changes before me and the decisions I need to make really frighten me.
So anyway, I went to the doctor today finally, the first day I felt strong enough to go, and he seems to feel it's anxiety. It seems hard to beleive, but I think he's right. I noticed the last few days that when I wasn't alone, letting my mind go to all the worst places, that I felt a lot better.
Today he put me on Xanax for 30 days and we'll see if that helps. I already feel better just having seen the doctor. I still get winded WAY too easy, but it's getting better every time I do something, so I think it's a matter of building my strength back up after 3 days of basically laying in bed doing nothing.
I think I'm coming to realize that I worry too much and when things start piling up I may need to be proactive and see the doctor in advance.
Anyway, I won't be around much the next few days. The doctor recommends I spend time around people, so I'm staying at my Mothers over the weekend. Hopefully by Monday the Xanax will kick in and I'll be able to handle being alone again.
Sorry I didn't update you guys throughout the week, but I was really afraid to move for most of it.
I'll just be happy when I get to the point where I can walk awhile or do stairs without feeling winded. There's been a lot of improvement since Wednesday night, so hopefully a few more days and I'll be where I need to be.
JR, I'm so glad you went to the doctor and you now know what's going on with yourself!! I too went through something very similar to this when we found out my mom had terminal cancer with less than 6 months to live. The shock alone sent me into such an awful tailspin that I had all kinds of physical symptoms present themselves. After a month of feeling so sick I thought I was dying, I finally went to the doctor and explained everything that was going on in my life. She gave me a prescription for Xanax and within a week all the feelings of "sickness" disappeared. It also helped with the anxiety I was feeling......which I desperately needed to vanish so I could make the most of the time I had left with my mom.
I know it can be very scary when facing major life changes, even when they are changes we want for ourself. The Xanax will help with the stress and anxiety you're experiencing.
I'm glad you'll be spending a few days with your mom.......it's important to your own state of mind to be around others right now.
I'm so glad you're feeling better and that you found out what's wrong. It can be hard to get out of the trappings of your own thoughts sometimes. And it's a vicious cycle, because then you don't want to leave the house, which is the best thing for your to do. I'm afraid Brian gets that way a lot, but his doctor is doing enough about it in my opinion.
It's amazing how stress and anxiety can do crazy things to you to make you think you must be dying. Hope you feel better, Riggs. As my voice teacher liked to say: BREEEEATHE!
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First. I'm sorry to JD & all of the fans of his shows. I spent the last three days in my old bedroom at my Mom's house trying to recouperate. Mom's are amazing, even when you're 40 years old There's just something comforting about being in your old room with Mom bringing you soup
My breathing is slowly getting better. I can walk around the house without getting winded too much. I can sense that's improving every day.
I"ve been hampered a bit by a bad muscle strain in my left leg. The long drive home from NC in one shot was not one of my smarter moves. I immediately felt the burning / straining sensation when I got out of the car.
The pain has since rotated around all the legs of the muscle, because as I try to walk I take pressure off the painful area but then create pressure on a whole new area. Hot water bottles help a lot, and at night I rub it down with icy hot and that helps to. For the next few days I'll be takin major doses of Advil.
I feel like if I can get the leg back to 100% then I get get moving around the house and go for walks to get myself up to full strength again.
For now I'm trying to get up and do something around the house every hour or so, stretching the leg a bit and building up my stamina again. The rest of the time I'll be here on the recliner with my laptop.
All those "stressers" that put me in this position are on temporary hold for now.
Thanks again for all the words of support, and again, sorry about the Sunday shows.
Now, does anyone care to catch me up on al our ther forum member ailments?
I of course know FireFly has had a horrible case of the flu and Strep Throat, bu also read Woo has been hurting, and someone in Mz's family has passed?
I too went through something very similar to this when we found out my mom had terminal cancer with less than 6 months to live. The shock alone sent me into such an awful tailspin that I had all kinds of physical symptoms present themselves. After a month of feeling so sick I thought I was dying, I finally went to the doctor and explained everything that was going on in my life. She gave me a prescription for Xanax and within a week all the feelings of "sickness" disappeared. It also helped with the anxiety I was feeling......which I desperately needed to vanish so I could make the most of the time I had left with my mom. 
