Okay, I feel like I just need to talk to someone, and you guys are really my best friends.  I guess I just need a best friend ear.

But, I'm putting this in it's own thread, because I'm not sure how public I may want to make my problems.  I may delete this thread later.

There's two things bothering me.  One is that I've been having a lot of mood problems lately.  I talked to my doctor about it yesterday, and broke into tears talking about it (how's that for illustrating it).  It's not like I'm depressed, but I'm having a harder time controlling my emotions.  She suggested before we do any testing or any medication (which I really don't want anti-depressants anyway), that I try exercising for 30 minutes every morning.  She said that obviously there's all the good health benefits of that, but that's not the reason she suggested it.  She said that it raises seratonin levels, and it should make my mood better.  Of course, I didn't exercise this morning.   But I guess that just wasn't the answer I wanted to hear.

But the bigger thing bothering me is my husband.  He took a temporary job while looking for a permanent one, just so we had some more money than the unemployment coming in and it extended the amount of time he's eligible to receive unemployment.  He ended up hating the temp job, which was groundskeeping.  So he'd come home every day in a bad mood and stay in a bad mood, which would get me in a bad mood.

But yesterday when I came home, he was in a good mood and making supper (which he had promised me already, so it wasn't that unusual).  And he had picked me wild flowers, which he does often.  But, he usually picks me flowers when he's walked somewhere, and he's been getting a ride to and from work.  So I asked where he picked the flowers from, and he said work, and I really didn't think anything of it.

And then he mentioned that he ran into an old coworker at the gas station who told him about a job that was interviewing at 8am at the unemployment office (called Work One here).

At that time, I was checking the caller ID and voicemail, which I do every day when I get home.  At 4, there was a call from the apartment complex where Brian's working.  I said, "Oh, did you call home today?"  And he responded that he did.

And then he said he left early from work because he needed to stop by the unemployment office because they have his current employment situation wrong in their computer (which they do).  And he said something along the lines of, "Oh yeah, that's where I saw the guy I used to work with."

Then I listened to voicemail, and his boss left a message saying that he's decided that he was going to end the temporary groundkeeping position for the summer.  Which really didn't surprise me, since Brian didn't like the job anyway.

But then, Brian said he left his lunch cooler at work, and that he'd get his normal ride there in the morning to go get it.  But, by getting that ride, he wouldn't make it to Work One in time for the interviews for the other job.

I'm guessing he was just looking for excuses to leave early, come in late, etc. for the temp job since he didn't like it.  I'm also guessing that he didn't want to tell me, because he knew I wouldn't approve.  He's not really interested in the job that's interviewing this morning, it doesn't fit what he's looking for, again I think it was just an excuse to go in late.

But it still bothers me that he lied to me about it.  But I hate being mad at him, and I'm glad that he's not working that job anymore and he can be happy again.  But I'm just having a hard time letting this go.