You know for such a long time I used the forum to escape my horrible home life and let the internet be my best friend. I did get lots of support and friendship and loved being here. Most of you did not know how bad things were here, but in some ways I think we are all here because of the release it gives us and the fact that we all accept each other. But as my life and enabling got more difficult I had to leave here and try to fix my family and get out of this cycle. Things were hard and I knew I had to stay away and face my problems, but I was always drawn back. I also could no longer post at work because of my promotion. I have a hard time setting boundaries and it has taken me a long time to be the person I know I am. It was hard to come back, but I felt like this was my family and like a long lost relative or the prodigal son, my return would be welcome. I  expected the cold shoulder maybe, but to be honest, I have felt bad that so many ignore my posts and appear to no longer want to interact with me.
I had no idea about Robby's post until just now. One of my employees just called me and her husband was killed in the line of duty and I came here to pray for her and get some love. But he has hit it on the head, I am not feeling like I need to be here anymore. I am sorry that I stayed gone so long to heal myself and sorry that it took me 40 years to get strong enough to stop enabling people and trying to fix them. At least I know now why I did it and how to stop it, but it was not going to happen overnight. But I do not want to create any drama here, I came here for love. But this has become like high school and I am not sure that is where I need to go back to. This is hard to write because I sound so highschoolish and many of you may be tired of the way I was or not understand my circumstances or choices.  But I know now that I do not need this place to have friendships and I do not need to hide from the world anymore, because I am living in God's light.

So I bow out today and will let you proceed as you were. I did gain a best friend here and that will never be taken from me. Thanks for the memories, laughs and support through the years and I will pray for you all. It has been an awesome 4 years, just like high school!

Love ya DS and you all can find me on facebook and JR you rock that you keep this station up and I will never stop requesting while I can. But I lost my son and my husband this week and I can handle losing this cause I am not sure what this is anymore, but it does not feel like home and there is no place like home.